I'm really struggling now. I have been for ages but it hurts today. That sickening, crushing pain under your rib cage; the one that gets behind your eyes so that you want to cry. I haven't got out of bed all day, or even got dressed, although I've managed to eat a bowl of Frosties and a pack of Penguin biscuits.
It's this awful despairing feeling that I can never describe. I know it's 'Depression', everyone tells me that, but I hate how all-consuming it is.
I haven't been sick or cut myself for a while but the urge is very much there. I found myself wondering about gong to get a few packets of pills from my local high street earlier 'just in case'.
I don't know what to do. I don't know why I think writing it here will help. It hasn't, really, but I don't have anyone to talk to. My friends are struggling enough without me adding to it.
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