Looking the way I do

I don't think I'll ever get used to looking how I do. To being a bit flabby, and to my multicoloured stripy arms. I'll never get used to being shouted at in the street for being overweight. I'll never get used to the way people stare when I wear a t-shirt. I don't think I'll ever learn how to answer the questions.

And yet, I can't stop doing the very things that make me overweight and that caused the scars. I'm trying very hard to stop and haven't done it for a while but that doesn't mean I don't want to...